I wish you could see the sadness of a businessman as his livelihood goes up in flames or that family

returning home, only to find their house and belongings damaged or destroyed.

I wish you could know what it is to search a burning bedroom for trapped children, flames rolling

above your head, your palms and knees burning as you crawl, the floor sagging under your weight as

the kitchen beneath you burns.

I wish you could comprehend a wife's horror at 3 A.M. as I check her husband of forty years for a

pulse and find none. I start CPR anyway, hoping against hope to bring him back, knowing intuitively

it is too late. But wanting his wife and family to know everything possible was done.

I wish you could know the unique smell of burning insulation, the taste of soot-filled mucus, the

feeling of intense heat through your turnout gear, the sound of flames crackling, and the eeriness of

being able to see absolutely nothing in dense smoke--"sensations that I have become too familiar

with."

I wish you could understand how it feels to go to training in the morning after having spent most of

the night, hot and soaking wet at a multiple alarm fire.

I wish you could read my mind as I respond to a building fire, `Is this a false alarm or a working,

breathing fire? How is the building constructed? What hazards await me? Is anyone trapped?' or to

an EMS call, `What is wrong with the patient? Is it minor or life threatening? Is the caller really in

distress or is he waiting for us with a 2x4 or a gun?'

I wish you could be in the emergency room as the doctor pronounces dead the beautiful little

five-year old girl that I have been trying to save during the past twenty-five minutes, who will never

go on her first date or say the words, "I love you Mommy!" again.

I wish you could know the frustration I feel in the cab of the engine, the driver with his foot pressing

down hard on the pedal, my arm tugging again and again at the air horn chain, as you fail to yield

right-of-way at an intersection or in traffic. When you need us, however, your first comment upon our

arrival will be, "It took you forever to get here!"

I wish you could read my thoughts as I help extricate a girl of teenage years from the mangled

remains of her automobile, `What if this were my sister, my girlfriend, or a friend? What was her

parents' reactions going to be as they open the door to find a police officer, HAT IN HAND?'

I wish you could know how it feels to walk in the back door and greet my parents and family, not

having the heart to tell them that you nearly did not come home from this last call.

I wish you could feel my hurt as people verbally, and sometimes physically, abuse us or belittle what

I do, or as they express their attitudes of, "It will never happen to me."

I wish you could realize the physical, emotional, and mental drain of missed meals, lost sleep and

forgone social activities, in addition to all the tragedy my eyes have viewed.

I wish you could know the brotherhood and self-satisfaction of helping save a life or preserving

someone's property, of being there in times of crisis, or creating order from total CHAOS.

I wish you could understand what it feels like to have a little boy tugging on your arm and asking, "Is

my mommy O.K.?" Not even being able to look in his eyes without tears falling from your own and

not knowing what to say. Or to have hold back a long-time friend who watches his buddy having

rescue breathing done on him as they take him away in the ambulance. You knowing all along he did

not have his seat belt on--sensations that I have become too familiar.

Unless you have lived this kind of life, you will never truly understand or appreciate who I am, what

we are, or what our job really means to us.

"I WISH YOU COULD"!